shall we shrug?

im reading a book i dug up at renessaince a few weeks ago--its essentially a compilation of facts about kinship. i've put a lot of thought into most of it before. you know, are humans polygynous or monogomous by nature? what is a humans natural tendency in regards to the importance and responsibility of being a familial building block? when did society and everything that comes with it begin to seriously interfere? etc, etc.

i'm beginning to wonder if "human nature" is too broad of a category to be able to draw any conclusions or even logical theories.

it's so beyond me, but, twenty pages into this book, i'm wondering if the roles individual humans play as sexual beings and members of families is far more out of their control than i previously imagined. in order to survive, some species of primates (depending on location) had to dedicate more time to a nuclear family in order to protect themselves and the existence of their "kind" than others did. that would lead me to believe that these tendencies eventually became the dominant phenotype...that's survival of the fittest. and what is to stop me from believing that humans evolved from a variety of primates--ultimately leading to all of these different morals and beliefs and values as well as appearances?

maybe its crazy, maybe i'll learn better as i continue to read, but for now it's an amusing thought especially at this point in my life:

i'm leaving for tanzania in a little over a month. both of my sisters are suddenly expressing negative feelings about me leaving. as i continue to plan and seemingly shrug off their feelings, i feel like i'm giving up on my duties as the eldest (but deep down i know and acknowledge that this will be as good for them as it will be for me and hopefully everyone i encounter along the way). it is strange, though. i've never missed my family, i think this time i will. and i'm currently planning on putting off college for my younger cousins and aunt. it's so unlike myself. i'm decreasing my individuality and it feels so good. the connections are finally clearing up a bit.

Coffee Shop Sugar Packets

A building near combustion; jump out the window...and into a sugar packet for the fall?

Take from it what you will.

jitterbug perfume

"I deserve to be chained by night in a church basement without company o' cassette player if I'm not man enough to ask you for the teeniest, slightest brush of oral-muscular affaction. "

highly recommended if your in search of happiness and have a little extra time on your hands.

burnt tongue

tea doin' ya wrong lately??

Following are some beneficial home remedies for a burnt tongue.

• Smear pure honey on the marks. It is a proven remedy that helps in clearing  up the scars.
• Chew a gum it serves as a valuable remedy. A sugar free gum is more effective for burning tongue treatment.
• A simple home remedy is simply sucking an ice cube. It helps in relieving pain.
• You should avoid brushing your teeth with toothpaste. Use baking soda instead to brush your teeth.
• Avoid hot and spicy foods until your tongue recovers, as it will deteriorate the condition and cause irritation.
• Increase the intake of foods that are rich in iron. Iron rich foods serve to heal the burnt skin faster.
• Consume papaya it is a very beneficial in healing the burns. Papaya contains enzymes that help rejuvenate the burnt skin, by replacing dead cells with new ones.
• The use of Aloe Vera is considered highly effective in the treatment of burns. Apply aloe Vera gel on the affected area.  Repeat this three or four time in a day.
• Lavender oil is helpful in the treatment of burns. Put a few drops of essential lavender oil on a cotton ball and dab it on the affected area. It is helpful in removing scars left behind by skin burns.

the shadow wall

scattered youth assemble

in a dance

before the shadow wall;
astonished with potential

ricochet

i had a dream almost exactly a year ago that has entirely changed the way i think. before, i thought in words--i was trying at least. i figured it was the way i was supposed to think (whatever that means), but, clearly, that wasn't the case. i think in pictures...scene like things. they're all 3D and they all sort of rotate in my head so i see all kinds of perspectives. kinda like pausing a dream and taking a look at it, except its reality. im not really sure how else to describe it. maybe you know what i'm talking about anyways.

more importantly, though, i really want that dream to come true right about now.

imagine this:
you're looking inside your head, it's just space--totally hollow. kinda looks like the inside of a rotting tree or something, but in the shape of your skull. and then theres a rectangular web, that reaches across the widest part of your head, like right above your ears...around your temples. its catching these things that look like...i dont really know if they look like anything, i guess. but they are ideas. all the ideas are in constant motion and they ricochet off your skull, some getting caught in the web, your brain. thats what's currently on your mind--somes probably good, somes probably bad. just like in real life. one end of the web sticks out of you're head, though. so you have the power to slide it out and shake it off whenever you want. the catch is that you take the risk of losing the good along with the bad or even just the good.

i kinda want to shake it off right about now any how. it's a bit crowded.

fast

so much turns into so little when you cant control the speed